God is Good!!!!

Yes He is!!!!!

He always answers my prayers and has always helped me through my most darkest times. And for that, I will always give praise and supplication to Him. My family and I could have been out on the streets and homeless but thank God that didn't happen. I love Him so and my faith will always be in Him. He made this transition seamless and I can only pray and hope that He grants me many more blessings, God willing.

This has been an extremely tough year for me and mine. Moreso than I could have handled if I was single and childless. I don't know why some people continue to hate but it's really not good for the soul. We were living at my aunt's house (which is in a senior citizen community) and the manager of the complex told her that we needed to be out. I completely understand that rules are rules and I'm very obedient but it was just the way she let her feelings come across-as if she was doing it out of spite and just using the property's rules to implement what was in the contract. Anyhow, She comes kocking on my aunt's door at 11pm. When my dear aunt answers the door, Leslie approaches her with her voice raised and with such fervor. Telling her that we (me, baby, and hubby) need to be out. So ok, we follow the rules and leave because of course we don't want to call any further attention to my aunt who, with her loving and compassionate soul took us in when we didn't have anywhere to go.
I swear, I'd do anything for that woman. I love her so much. When we left, it felt like I was leaving my mother. I almost cried. She texted me earlier saying that she misses us and that she cried herself to sleep and slept in our bed so she could be close to us. Damn, I love her. Almost wish she was my mother. What an incredible person. My loyalty will always be with her.
Thank the Lord He has blessed me with everything and everyone that I need. I just want to get my feet back on the ground so I can enjoy life and stop stressing. I want to spend more time with my family and show them that I love them and that they mean the world to me.

Keep Love In Your Life,
A.Rose

Dirtygurl.net

Hi Guys!!!
So recently I was browsing the internet on my smart phone and when I tried to pull up one of my favorite and informative websites Dirtygurl.net, it couldn't be pulled up. It said that the web page was "temporarily unavailable". Okay, I thought that maybe it was just my phone. I hop online on my laptop to view the website and the same message appears. "Damn!", I thought since that is one of my favorite websites. But then if you guys know what kind of stuff is written on there, it almost doesn't surprise me that it's down. It could just be exactly what it says it is but c'mon, I've seen a bunch of good websites like that get taken down because of it's content. Anyway.... damn, I really hope she's aware of what's going on with her website because it really is a good one. Hopefully it gets fixed or something real soon.

Keep Love in Your Life,
A.Rose

For Tila Tequila...

Hi Everyone!! I came across this blog post from Tila's website, misstilaomg.com and she asked her readers to repost it for her so that's exactly what I'm doing. Hopefully the post is self-explanatory but if not, then I urge you all to start doing your own research into the truth about what's going on.

THE GOVERNMENT HACKED MY EMAIL & USED MY FRIENDS IDENTITY TO SPY ON ME!

Written By: MissTila - Oct• 24•12

JUST NEED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT THE CIA HAS BEEN POSING AS MY REAL FRIENDS BY USING THEIR EMAILS AND SO I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO THESE CIA AGENTS FOR WEEKS AND WEEKS THINKING THEY WERE MY FRIENDS SINCE THE CIA USED MY FRIEND’S IDENTITY POSING AS HIM!
BUT THEN ONE DAY MY “REAL FRIEND” EMAILS ME AND SAYS
“HEY WERE U BEEN? I HAVEN’T TALKED TO YOU FOR WEEKS!”
I WAS LIKE “WHAT??? I BEEN TAKING TO YOU EVERYDAY WHAT DO YOU MEAN??”

THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I REALIZED NOT ONLY ARE THE CIA READING ALL OF MY EMAILS, THEY ARE ALSO POSING AS MY FRIENDS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT INFORMATION!!! BUT UNFORTUNATELY FOR THEM I AM TOO SMART TO TELL ANYONE ANY INFORMATION!!!!!
HOWEVER, ONCE I SAW THAT “”MY FRIEND” WAS EMAILING ME WITH 3 DIFFERENT THREADS AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  SO I ASKED ALL 3 ACCOUNTS THE SAME QUESTION AND THEY AL GAVE A DIFFERENT ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!  THAT’S WHEN I WAS ONFIRMED THAT I HAVE BEEN SPIED ON AND THEY HAVE VIOLATED MY PRIVACY RIGHTS!!!
SO ONCE I REALIZED EVERYONE WAS IN MY EMAIL READING EVERYTHING I FINALLY WARMED THEM THAT IF THEY CONTINUE TO FUCK WITH ME THAT AS GOD AS MY WITNESS I WILL TELL EVERYONE THE TRUTH OF WHT THEY DID!!!!
THEN RIGHT AFTER THAT I GOT A STRANGE PHONE CALL SAYING I NEEDED TO CALL BACK THIS NUMBER RIGHT AWAY OR ELSE MY ACCOUNT WILL BE REMOVED! THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN MY RADIO SHOW POPS UP AND SAYS ITS GOING TO AIR LIVE TODAY BUT I NEVER SET UP ANY LIVE SHOWS TODAY! SO THEY WERE GOING TO USE SOMEONE ELSE TO MIMIC ME ON THE RADIO WHILE MOST LIKLEY PLANNING ON RUINING MY REPTUTATION!!!!!
SO PLESE I NEED YOU GUYS TO KNOW THIS!  I WILL NOT BE ON THE RADIO FOR AT LEAST A WEEK SO DONT LET ANYONE TRICK YOU!!!!! PLEASE REPOST FOR ME!
BUT AS GOD AS MY WITNESS IF THEY KEEP FUCKING WITH ME I SHALL TELL THE WORLD WHAT IT IS THAT MAKES THEM SO SCARED OF CERTAIN THINGS I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  PLEASE POST THIS MESSAGE EVVERYWHERE!

PRAY FOR ME MY ANGELS,
MISS TILA

Can any of you even imagine what she's going through? What if it happened to you? C'mon guys let's be aware and keep our eyes open... I'm pretty sure this type of shit happens all the time but the information is never released to the public.

Keep love in your life,
A.Rose

What the hell?!?

     About a week ago, I found out that my recently semi-estranged mother was telling lies about me to our family. Telling both my grandmothers that I wouldn't help out and pay rent which is exactly NOT true, and telling them a fabricated lie about why me, my fiance and our young son aren't living there anymore. It pisses me off majorly because I thought my mother was better than that. I thought that was something that we would never have to encounter. Boy was I wrong about that.
     In addition to every fucked up thing that's happened since we've moved here from "Tha City", this is the fucking cherry center-piece topping. So it's not bad enough that my mother is obviously traumatized and brainwashed into completely protecting her husband (not my father) and in the process was willing to besmirch my name to those that I love dearly.
     Woe is me!!!
     Trust me, there's plenty of bullshit that properly corresponds to this matter but for now this is my gripe. So over the weekend I finally talk to one of my grandmothers and she kinda-sorta convinced me to not be so hard on my mom. Ok fine Gma!!!! Kuz I love her so dang much and because when my mother was so doped up on drugs and would forget that me and my brother were at Gma's waiting to be picked up, she essentially took on an iconic maternal role in our lives.
     Then I go and visit my stepfather's mother and she tells me the same thing and to try and understand that at this point it's the drugs that are doing the talking. Ok fine Gramma!! Geez, I'm tellin' you these old ladies sure are convincing!!!
     But essentially I understood where they were coming from and honestly I just don't have it in me to fully hate my mother. As I've always said, " Fathers are a dime a dozen but you only get one mother". I feel like I was raised better than that. How would you feel if your only daughter hated you? Well, I have a son and fuck that....That ain't happening!!!
     So I text my mom and tell her that I love her and that I'm thinking of her- the same stuff I always text her because it's the truth. And I also throw in a few pictures of the little one to really make her day. She loved it!!!
     I guess the point that I'm trying to get across is that people are always going to do you wrong. It doesn't give them to right to keep fucking you over and it doesn't justify thier actions either but if you can come to the reality about this and accept it, maybe you can have a little peace in your life. I'm not always at odds with my mother but there are things that I do feel strongly about-things worth voicing my opinion over.
     All my life I've had this thing about being taken advantage of. I don't like it and I used to go out of my way to make sure that the opposing person got exactly what they deserved. I was almost built out of being vengeful. I carried it in my heart and wore it on my sleeve. That was before I got pregnant and had a child. Since then, I've seen a slew of violence, anger, drugs and even a death (or should I say "murder"). Things that have forced me to really understand what is going on.
     Well, that's enough for now...I'll chat with you guys later!

Keep Love In Your Life,
A.Rose